Book Me!

Let me first start by saying that I am exhausted! I didn't get much sleep last night and I had a doc appt today that I was late for and couldn't see her. It's a good thing I drove all the way to Sayre for the appt! It's okay though it gave me a chance to read a friends book and I'm so mad that I don't have the whole thing because it is soooooo good. I have to know what happens next. I literally yelled when I got to the last page because I don't know what happens next. Shit! That's what people are going to think about my book since there a big cliffhanger. Hmmm.....that makes me think a little bit!

So had a meeting the other day with the some ladies from the writing group and realized so much that I didn't even think about before. For instance legality. What can you say and what can't you say without permission. I got a B in my Comm Law class and apparently I wasn't paying close enough attention because I forgot a lot of the rules. Like I can't use someone elses lyrics unless I get permission. Condering I don't know Train personally I would have to say that they are probably not going to let me use their lyrics from their Meet Virginia song. (which is one of my favorite songs) I thought about messaging them on their Twitter page but I figured they probably would think I was some crack pot wanting to steal their lyrics so I didn't. But don't you worry Bloaders I found a soluttion that solves the problem. I have a friend who is just amazing at music and he has a couple of his own songs that he said I have permission to use. So I'm going to use lyrics from his song in my book and I figure with his permission there is no way that can be illegal. Lifesaver...I think so :) Next on the book list my cover...Got a look at it today and I would have to say it's pretty bitchin'. I really like it but there is something that is missing and I can't put my finger on it. I don't know I have to figure it out so that I can make a website. Who would think that self publishing would be so much work....so so much work. Also book wise I've been thinking of putting maybe a couple of pages or the first chapter on my blog to see if it sparks any interest. Good idea? Let me know what you think. I love my Bloaders opinions! (by the way if you want to see the covers you can visit my twitter or facebook)

Other than the lyrics I am just nervous all the way around about the book. I have this fear of someone that I look up to calling me ameuture(that doesn't look right) I know it's going to happen. I read an entire blog the other about people who will just hate your book because they hate everything. I actually watched this funny comedy with Nick Swardson and he was saying how he hates people who are always constantly saying how no matter what they hate everything. I have to agree with him on that one. I remember people saying  Bad Boys, Die Hard, Gone Baby Gone were bad movies and I just want to ask them if they watched it with their eyes closed because THEY ARE AMAZING! I know I know it's just my opinion and Michael Bay over does it blah blah blah! I just want them to take a minute and really evaluate their pessimistic life. The glass does not have to be half empty people. Tell me some positives first then you can hit me with the negatives...Sheesh! Where was I? Oh, scared about what people will think about my book. What if I send it to a reviewer that I'm just crazy about and she ends up telling me that my work is poo? I can't shake this fear out of me. The worse is if somehow Karin Slaughter read my book and she says something like she could do a better job if she wrote it all down on paper, ate it, and the crapped it out! I don't know if I would be able to handle that because I idolize her. I never though anyone would beat Agatha Chrisite but she did. Do you guys have any advice to deal with pre-jitters. I think if I were going through a publisher I wouldn't be so nervous but since I've doing everything myself I am frickin' nervous! I think tomorrow if I am feeling better I will just get a bottle of Bully Hill wine and a big ol' chart and map out everything I have to do so that I am not so scattered brain about the whole situation. Especially since my brother thinks coming out in January might not be the best idea because it's right after Christmas and no one has any money, and I totally agree. I just don't want it to be out around Valentines day. I want it out before then.

Let me interrupt my train of thought and just say that I am still listening to my friends music trying to finally decide what song lyrics I want to use and I'm sort of blown away by his talents. I had no idea he could sing and mix lyrics together like this. The only thing I can do like that is play two different songs at once.


I would write more about this week's episode of NCIS and Psych and this fascination I have with touching things...but I will have to let that continue to my next blog because I'm beat!